Words and feelings

Recently i listened to this song titled "What are words" by Chris Medina.

Highly recommended by me, this song really tells alot. Maybe it's so touching and nice because it's related to the singer's real life. For those who don't know, you can simply google the name of this singer, and please take a look and read through his story.

It's glad to know that someone like that still exist, in this corrupted society. And also thanks to the producer who found him and give him this opportunity, and let us heard this amazing voice after he's been eliminated on American Idol.

Please please please, look up the lyrics of this song, also the emotions pouring in.

Overall, i hope you guys can give in some time and listen to this.

"What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them?"

记得吗？

一个人，走到哪里才算远

回忆一天一天的淡忘，忘到什么时候才会变成尘埃

一个人，累到什么程度才算疲倦

走在海边，只能尝到和泪水一样的咸

这种感觉，你还记得吗？

Goodbye, past.

Hey readers! First of all, a big happy new year to everyone, it's 2011!

Indeed i had a great night yesterday, not my best but, who cares anyway :)

Spent the evening at Paradise beach with a bunch of middle school friends, good to see them in one piece.

I sat by the beach, looking towards the coast line.

Randomly, it brought me back to the last time i came here, and recalled the reason of it.

Ahh screw the drama, back to work by preparing for the BBQ party for later.

Skip the makan part, only the same old BBQ routine.

I wandered around in the dark,

wondering how would it be if you are around.

It's the last day of the year after all, i bet everyone hope and wish to spend it with someone who really meant alot to them , yes?

...

When it's nearly twelve, the crowd gets excited and ready for countdown!

Same old routine again with the five, four, three, and bla bla bla.

It's finally 2011, fireworks took their chances and sparkled up the night,

i looked up into the sky, wishing someone a happy new year.

Went back to the suite, did not sleep cause of insufficient space in the suite,

me and some of the other victims talk about life after graduation,

things we gonna do, things we unexpected and people we met.

Had a great talk though :/.

It's dawn when i noticed, out the window.

Let the first light in the sky, put up an end for "i miss you".

飞鸟和鱼

我是鱼，你是飞鸟，要不是你一次张望关注，要不是我一次失速流离，哪来这一场不被看好的眷与恋？

你勇敢，我宿命，你是一只可以四处栖息的鸟，我是一尾早已没了体温的鱼，蓝的天，蓝的海，难为了我和你。

什么天地啊，四季啊，昼夜啊，什么海天一色。地狱天堂，暮鼓晨钟，睡不着的夜，醒不来的早晨，春天的花如何得知秋天的果，今天的不堪如何原谅昨日的昏盲，飞鸟如何去爱，怎么会爱上水里的鱼？

－齐豫《飞鸟和鱼》

Part of the chapter

Everything happens for a reason, i know. So, don't blame anyone and whine about this world

is unfair. Even if it's, this is life and we should adapt ourself and survive through it. People

change, in many ways, so that we can learn to let go.

Cut all the craps, i don't need lies to cover up my life. Even tho this world is full of disguise, i

rather to be different from what they are. Trust nobody, because it's never worth the risk.

I'm moving on, quietly but surely. Leaving all the shits behind, and taking away all the sorries

for someone who really appreciate it.

Someone once told me, "it's not a bad thing when things fall apart sometimes,

this is the only way to let the good things take over your life. When you put all your efforts on something

that really mean alot to you, you'll do whatever it takes to change yourself. And if obstacles break your

effort, and what you've done doesn't even really matter anymore, all you can do is just, keep changing for a

better good, for your own sake. The process of changing will be hard, very hard, i've been through that too.

You'll get mad and screw up peoples around you, seems like everyone don't understand you anymore.

But bear in mind, you don't live for them, they're not worth it."

Thanks for everything that she taught me, it's been a great talk.

Let time do the job and mend everything that is meant to be broken.

In the end of the chapter, i won't hope someone to understand me anymore, i lost all my hopes.

今天的天空

今天的天空

灰淡的让人猜不透

留不下的

就让雨水慢慢的

让它退色吧

丢不掉的

敷衍留下吧

若有一天情绪将我

淹没

就让我

这样吧

车里外的世界

那一夜，我开着车没有目的饶，

把车窗都摇了下来，看看窗外的世界。

细雨过后的天空，未散开的乌云把月亮狠狠的吞噬，

给不了提着灯笼的路人们一个交代，

此刻莫名的感伤。

经过了那一条，熟悉搭配陌生的街，

忘了过了多久了。

陪着我走过的那双鞋，在车里后座底下，

它旧得很好看，提醒了我曾经缓慢的那些画面，

只是曾经。

也经过了那水果档口，还仍然卖着那些带着回忆的苹果，

去年的那颗苹果，是否还甜呢？

把音量放大，随口哼一小段歌词，当做为哽咽找个借口，

然后不望后视镜，劝服自己过往的也不过是经过。

伪装着回到宿舍，把窗摇起，

也停下了车。

生活中失去了期待，我又能怎样呢？

走出车外，不再留恋了。

眼泪却不肯相信。

曲折了

手指在键盘上发呆着，突然词穷了。

座上玻璃杯里凌乱的彩色纸条，安静得没意义了。

就像那些思念如此透明，却寄不到你身旁，

内容，就不用去碰了。

人来人往中，没有你的画面，

脚步渐渐失速了。

我需要逃避，去扮演不在乎的角色，

但方向模糊了。

我随着你的影子偷偷在改变，

你没发现，只能说，

可惜了。

你

天很宽，我独自唱着歌，望着已落幕的夜晚

隐约的，嘲笑自己。

“这一次，不可以有任何借口了”

怪自己真的累了。

我猜固执的你，应该不会再相信我没证据的［真实］吧，

没关系，我已把所有知道的说了出来

不盼望你的信任，只想要你知道

这些都是我想告诉的，够了。

不管你和身边的人怎么想或看

都不重要了，不在乎了

我有我的价值，论不到谁来评论。

但始终我要谢谢你，

你让我更懂得自己，不再随便情绪化，

还成长了许多。

若不是你，我也没这个机会悄悄的改变我自己。

曾经让我相信，遇见你是不可能的幸运，而学院就因你变得多么有趣。

烦躁时，打开msn，看到你找来的那些冷笑话，让那一天变得多么的轻松快乐。

不开心时，你用简单的蓝色，写成最深刻的“要开心”给我，那时我开始学习了如何让自己快乐。

让我微笑，不需要理由的微笑。

聆听我的心事，也分享了不少。

这些事你应该忘了，但如果记了起来，

相信我曾真心喜欢过你。

回忆里的内容，我会自私的留着

苹果，咖啡，微笑，贪吃。

能相遇不容易，

虽然过后可能彼此都变成路人，

我仍感激。

舍不得，当然。

我又能如何？

不管未来会是怎样，

我祝福你，有品尝不完的快乐。

=]

我们都疯了

从喜欢一样东西或对象的开始，我们都疯了。只因为没有理由的爱上，这就证明了人类愚蠢的思想。

没有原因的想起那些事或者那些人，更本没有正确的推论。那些，都只是错乱的思想一而再的干扰。

已经知道那些得到的幸福，即可是短暂的，我们却渴望陶醉在那渐渐退色的甜。

梦里不断的遇见，美妙。然而，在每一个梦醒时分却假装的把它当作场电影。

可是还未完全清醒的神经，对着枕头述说那舍不得的刚才。

不懂何处进攻的情绪，能把防范垒垒的心墙一砖一砖的拆下，

但是伤痕累累的傻孩子，还是会偷偷地把那些砖放回原来的位子。

一直把其他的人放在比自己还重要的地位，值得吗？

难道我们不能自私点？

超载的关心，已经变成不必要的烦恼。傻傻的我们，不管那么多还继续的给。

智障了吗？

世界很大呀，不必只单恋那个所谓的 ［人／事／物］ 吧？

我们却有了奇怪的心态，爱上了，怎么也不想脱离。

这样无谓坚持，为了什么？

哈哈！可笑的天真！

但想一想，也许我们曾经也是那么的无知，

我们，快乐吗？

这些不就是最原始的感动吗？

才不管世人怎么想怎么看，我们坚信着这份说不通，搞不懂的最初。

不被认定的荒唐，却是打从心里最疯狂最真诚的表达。

所以说，由始至终，

我们都疯了。不是吗？