像是秋天，落叶随风飘零，跌落脚边慢慢盘旋，

潜意识里浮现了一面收悉的侧脸，为这场叶雨加上了一点甘甜，

风也把风铃吹醒，小心的吹出轻盈的思念，

不知道风会将思念吹到谁的身边，

记忆里的笑容，我一定还能看见，

你和我，

这么单调的和玄，我却毫不知觉的眷恋。

The few things on my mind rite now.

Hey guys i decided to update my blog, like now -_-

It will be a random and a quick post just to keep myself updated .

Have you ever felt so darn lucky before?

For instance, unpredictability meting someone in your life,

and that someone made you realized that, you'r so lucky to have them.

Had you?

If yes, congrats that you truly love someone, and stay lucky as long as possible k?

:)

It's been raining all these while, and disasters are hitting all around the globe, again.

Hmm, as usual we pray and hope for a better tomorrow for everyone.

Everyone should really start learning how to appreciate their life, cause nobody promises tomorrow.

Take care and happy holidays people!

Words and feelings

Recently i listened to this song titled "What are words" by Chris Medina.

Highly recommended by me, this song really tells alot. Maybe it's so touching and nice because it's related to the singer's real life. For those who don't know, you can simply google the name of this singer, and please take a look and read through his story.

It's glad to know that someone like that still exist, in this corrupted society. And also thanks to the producer who found him and give him this opportunity, and let us heard this amazing voice after he's been eliminated on American Idol.

Please please please, look up the lyrics of this song, also the emotions pouring in.

Overall, i hope you guys can give in some time and listen to this.

"What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them?"

记得吗？

一个人，走到哪里才算远

回忆一天一天的淡忘，忘到什么时候才会变成尘埃

一个人，累到什么程度才算疲倦

走在海边，只能尝到和泪水一样的咸

这种感觉，你还记得吗？

Goodbye, past.

Hey readers! First of all, a big happy new year to everyone, it's 2011!

Indeed i had a great night yesterday, not my best but, who cares anyway :)

Spent the evening at Paradise beach with a bunch of middle school friends, good to see them in one piece.

I sat by the beach, looking towards the coast line.

Randomly, it brought me back to the last time i came here, and recalled the reason of it.

Ahh screw the drama, back to work by preparing for the BBQ party for later.

Skip the makan part, only the same old BBQ routine.

I wandered around in the dark,

wondering how would it be if you are around.

It's the last day of the year after all, i bet everyone hope and wish to spend it with someone who really meant alot to them , yes?

...

When it's nearly twelve, the crowd gets excited and ready for countdown!

Same old routine again with the five, four, three, and bla bla bla.

It's finally 2011, fireworks took their chances and sparkled up the night,

i looked up into the sky, wishing someone a happy new year.

Went back to the suite, did not sleep cause of insufficient space in the suite,

me and some of the other victims talk about life after graduation,

things we gonna do, things we unexpected and people we met.

Had a great talk though :/.

It's dawn when i noticed, out the window.

Let the first light in the sky, put up an end for "i miss you".

飞鸟和鱼

我是鱼，你是飞鸟，要不是你一次张望关注，要不是我一次失速流离，哪来这一场不被看好的眷与恋？

你勇敢，我宿命，你是一只可以四处栖息的鸟，我是一尾早已没了体温的鱼，蓝的天，蓝的海，难为了我和你。

什么天地啊，四季啊，昼夜啊，什么海天一色。地狱天堂，暮鼓晨钟，睡不着的夜，醒不来的早晨，春天的花如何得知秋天的果，今天的不堪如何原谅昨日的昏盲，飞鸟如何去爱，怎么会爱上水里的鱼？

－齐豫《飞鸟和鱼》

Part of the chapter

Everything happens for a reason, i know. So, don't blame anyone and whine about this world

is unfair. Even if it's, this is life and we should adapt ourself and survive through it. People

change, in many ways, so that we can learn to let go.

Cut all the craps, i don't need lies to cover up my life. Even tho this world is full of disguise, i

rather to be different from what they are. Trust nobody, because it's never worth the risk.

I'm moving on, quietly but surely. Leaving all the shits behind, and taking away all the sorries

for someone who really appreciate it.

Someone once told me, "it's not a bad thing when things fall apart sometimes,

this is the only way to let the good things take over your life. When you put all your efforts on something

that really mean alot to you, you'll do whatever it takes to change yourself. And if obstacles break your

effort, and what you've done doesn't even really matter anymore, all you can do is just, keep changing for a

better good, for your own sake. The process of changing will be hard, very hard, i've been through that too.

You'll get mad and screw up peoples around you, seems like everyone don't understand you anymore.

But bear in mind, you don't live for them, they're not worth it."

Thanks for everything that she taught me, it's been a great talk.

Let time do the job and mend everything that is meant to be broken.

In the end of the chapter, i won't hope someone to understand me anymore, i lost all my hopes.

今天的天空

今天的天空

灰淡的让人猜不透

留不下的

就让雨水慢慢的

让它退色吧

丢不掉的

敷衍留下吧

若有一天情绪将我

淹没

就让我

这样吧

车里外的世界

那一夜，我开着车没有目的饶，

把车窗都摇了下来，看看窗外的世界。

细雨过后的天空，未散开的乌云把月亮狠狠的吞噬，

给不了提着灯笼的路人们一个交代，

此刻莫名的感伤。

经过了那一条，熟悉搭配陌生的街，

忘了过了多久了。

陪着我走过的那双鞋，在车里后座底下，

它旧得很好看，提醒了我曾经缓慢的那些画面，

只是曾经。

也经过了那水果档口，还仍然卖着那些带着回忆的苹果，

去年的那颗苹果，是否还甜呢？

把音量放大，随口哼一小段歌词，当做为哽咽找个借口，

然后不望后视镜，劝服自己过往的也不过是经过。

伪装着回到宿舍，把窗摇起，

也停下了车。

生活中失去了期待，我又能怎样呢？

走出车外，不再留恋了。

眼泪却不肯相信。

曲折了

手指在键盘上发呆着，突然词穷了。

座上玻璃杯里凌乱的彩色纸条，安静得没意义了。

就像那些思念如此透明，却寄不到你身旁，

内容，就不用去碰了。

人来人往中，没有你的画面，

脚步渐渐失速了。

我需要逃避，去扮演不在乎的角色，

但方向模糊了。

我随着你的影子偷偷在改变，

你没发现，只能说，

可惜了。