What's going wrong in me?..

I felt so..complicated,
Even myself don't know what i'm doing..
negative thinkings and despression poped out just like that out of nowhere..

Angels and Demons in my thoughts,perhaps..
But usually,demons won by their mystical words,
pulled me into curiosity,and the curiosity of mine turned into something scary,
Its beyond imaginations..

I'm Not the Origin.."Myself"?
Who i am now?
Please someone tell me,where to find the original "Me"..

What am i thinking,
Why do i think this way..
And why..
Why can i make A person felt bad..

What is the cure?Where to find it?
I just can't control my emotions,
The gateway of miserable thoughts..
Do i lived in it?

Help me please,anyone..
i..seriously..
Dont wana treat The person i care so Bad..