Why she thinks like that?

She thought i would
meet a
better girl if i'm already fall for her?


She thinks that..
i'm that kind of guy
perhaps..

What's going wrong in me?..

I felt so..complicated,
Even myself don't know what i'm doing..
negative thinkings and despression poped out just like that out of nowhere..

Angels and Demons in my thoughts,perhaps..
But usually,demons won by their mystical words,
pulled me into curiosity,and the curiosity of mine turned into something scary,
Its beyond imaginations..

I'm Not the Origin.."Myself"?
Who i am now?
Please someone tell me,where to find the original "Me"..

What am i thinking,
Why do i think this way..
And why..
Why can i make A person felt bad..

What is the cure?Where to find it?
I just can't control my emotions,
The gateway of miserable thoughts..
Do i lived in it?

Help me please,anyone..
i..seriously..
Dont wana treat The person i care so Bad..

A story about,the fake Romeo and Juliet.

Of course i dont know the actual story so clear,-.-
But let me try to write a whole new one,by not changing its meaning.

Once upon a time,there was Romeo..1st day in college,
reported himself to the department and went off to find his neighbour,
cause that neighbour was his only fren in the same class for the 1st day.

Well,skip skip skip,he found his neighbour,and theres one more girl beside her,
Juliet was her name.
3 of them walked their way to the theatre for the Orientation.

What a coincedence,Romeo seated beside the Blushing Juliet,
For the day..Romeo Intended to be friends with Juliet,
But he was to shy that time,More or less,Its the 1st day..
So he din't talked to Juliet.
2nd day was also the boring Orientation,
Nothing happened and it goes just as usual.

The day after 2nd,They attended their 1st class,
and that day,Romeo Just gave it a try,and get Juliet's number..
He did it,and that night out of nowhere,He just keep thinking of her,don't even know the reason why.

Skip skip skip skip,
second week arrived,one of that night,
Romeo can't control himself so that he took out his cellphone,sent a message to Juliet,
he was scared,afraid that Juliet's would just ignored him..

"Bling"
suddenly the cellphone rang with the message tone,
Romeo was excited,Glamourous..yet scared if its the msg is from Juliet or some stupid maxis center or whatever related to that,

He slowly took his phone,with Gambling mood when viewed the msg..
"BINGO" its from juliet =]
Infinity excitement and happiness rush towards him,
omg high blood pressure =_=

Romeo asked her to guess whether who he is,
But Juliet just cant get it right,until the 3rd week..
They were happy all the way,Till the 4th week..

An invinsible and consumable force distracted them,
For some Reasons,Juliet is afraid..

Romeo is sad and dont even get it why at the first time,
But the time is the elixir,
Finally Romeo understand,Time is everything he need to proof his love towards Juliet.

So whenever,whatever..
He will be always here =]

Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

I'll be right here anytime to cheer u up,Juliet..
[Even during midnite._.]

GoodLuck in the MidTerm exam,
and stay happy everyday^^.



The END.

To be continue?

Yes i care,i cant just act like nothing happened before..
Even time is short,but it does'nt mean that the past few weeks we spent are fake illusions..
I knew it,i can sure u felt the same as i felt that time.
Were you happy?
Well,i am!!

You dont want any boyfriends or fall in love with somebody u said,
But if its just because of 2 of that previous idiots,izit worthed you to do such action and decison?
Since u've decided,i wont force you to open your heart or whatever,
I just seriously wana share my opinion with you..

I'm sorry upon my harsh words that i used in the msgs,i just cant control my emotions,
Sry for hurting you..
Hate me if you want,even ignore me..
it this can make u happy,please do so..

I'll be right here,
if whenever u need to talk..


Its just a matter of time,i'll proof that i'm different from those lunatic freaks,

Because of you,i corrected my bad habbit,
Because of you,the world turns into a better place to live in,
And Because of you,i've became a better man.

KY,i'm in love with you.

Night in Starbucks..

It's me again,=]
wah juz noticed that my blog was no longer death compared to the past few months,haha..
i'm writing this post in penang new world city's starbucks,enjoying the coffee moment.
But i dint order coffee la,my stomach not feeling well so i order "ais kosong" as they called the sky juice in bahasa melayu,only used in Mamak's stalls field..

Yea my course is getting more fun this few days except for maths._.
2 more weeks before mid term arrive,i think i'm ready la coz its the 1st test and its must be easy,except for maths.Again.

Sigh..

Hey,the weather now is crisis,just like the economy..steam!
So,take care la =]..

And for the flu and sick ones,
Hope [YOU] guys'll get well soon, :D

I'll stop here,Hope my life wont be so boring from now onwards,
bye.

My Spider =3

Lollipops are like Magic?o_O!

23/4/09.

Well,its kinda gloomy blue day for me,cause i woke up at 8 for class,which i dint even slpt yesterday night,thx for the White coffee i had..and i reached school early,find a seat for myself,briefed myself for the starting of the day.
Unexpectedly,miss izma came in our class and said "sry ar guys,ur teacher took mc today,so theres no class for this morning."
Omg,dont even know i should cry or laugh..
To laugh was,I'm free for the morning,can go where i want and have my breakfast since its 5 hours yet to the next class,
But to cry was..Walao!i woke up so early and the class canceled??!
Frustated,plus for some reasons,got abit emo..
Sry i dint smile during this morning,Cause i really tired..LoL..
Erm...and yeah!
u cant read the mms right,i'll post it here =]





Remember this?everytime i looked into it,i can saw someone thru it,
and it feels good,i wont eat it coz its my most precious tresure that i ever had,and most important its from someone special =]

Thx,and lets fight for the future,RAWR!!!!

Update!!

First of all..the internet line starting to rot,and its sucks.
i hate it =[

...

To "someone"

Even u dint get matrix..But i'm always here for you..No mather where/how/when. =]
+ U!! !!
+U ARHHHHH !! !! !! !!

Since its been so long..

3 years,its been so long that i've suffering alone without ur shadow around..
it faded away juz like that,and i wont puzzle it back for my own desire..
Coz i finally found out the answer of true relationships,
Its not in the oxford dictionary or national geographic encyclopedia,its found nowhere..
Just the right time,right moment,i get the answer just like that,
even if we cant be couples or watever,if u're happy with ur life,i'm glad too..


As in for "you",the one that i wrote this post for you,
i'm serious when i said that i wana understand u more,
and spend more time with you..

I could search my whole life through and through and never find another you,
and yes,When I first saw you I was afraid to talk to you,
When I first talked to you I was afraid to like you,
But its beyond my control,i've been pulled in to the black hole..
and the black hole was you.

ps : I TARAK PAKAT WITH ORANG TO PLAY U LA T_T

New enviroment,College's Life.

Some says,its boring.
And some says,its interesting.Well i agree with the interesting side,at least for the first week.
College's started for the march intake students in KDU penang Campus,first of all i thought that penang was just amazing place with all those shoppings malls,Mega cinema,and Majestic buildings on the island and light blue ocean surrounding it,peacefull,etc etc.Facinating right?

But sinced i moved in to the new place "we" rent,me and some of my frens,my dream scene just vanished into thin air.WTF the Traffics,Walao unbeliefable -_-.Nowonder a game named Risk your life, the game scene is just like a scene in the game,no doubt the publisher of the game loves penang so much.Really risking my life on the Roads and streets.

Okay my favourite part,The college,/gg.Not the subject that i choose made the college my favourite part of my new lifestyle la,it's.....
THE GIRLS,LOL! <<<[i'm honest]

Mehh,tml have to go penang again,got class on monday.
i'll be writing next time when i get my desktop to pg,farewell for now,ADIOS AMIGO!